Today I treated myself....I hired a house cleaner!

Life for me has been busy, hectic, and stressful.  I've lost my skill of being able to embrace the good around me and find myself dwelling on the what's to come.  There are some big things looming that will having lasting and consequential impacts on my life.  It will impact my financial state, my career, my entire life as a whole, and my mental health in many ways.  I've really been facing it head strong because it's very forefront in my life right now and I think it's time to step back and breathe.  Find my peace and learn again to roll with the punches and find the good.

Another strong area of contention for me has been my health.  I haven't recovered well from my latest hospitalization and because of it quality of life is lower.  I push myself to continue cooking, working, taking the kids to activities, having fun with them, staying as active as possible but with limited mobility and collapsing into bed most nights at 9 stiff and unable to push any further, I am frustrated and defeated.  Things like mopping, scrubbing a tub, vacuuming stairs are about as easy for me as running a marathon.  What would normally take someone 20 minutes can take me hours and it leaves me with days of inflammation and sometimes flare ups of pain.

So today I interviewed, negotiated a price and time, and hired me a house cleaner.  Already the idea that every Tuesday my bathroom and kitchen will glisten is taking a lot of weight off my shoulders.  To pay for it I plan to forgo my daily morning coffee (and occassional sweetie) at the local coffee shop.  At $4 a pop, more if I indulge in a latte or treat, it easily covers my monthly cleaning bill.  It's not a hard sacrifice for me and it's money better spent.

So today, after doing that, I had a renewed burst of energy.  I meal prepped, shopped, chopped and prepared all the fruits and snacks for the kids to grab or pack for school.  I cooked a delicious supper, I made two desserts (pan fried cinnamon bananas and banana nutella crepes) and puttered around my kitchen listening to the '00s sing along play list (and yes Shakira I will shake my hips).

It's all a part of my self-care and if that means delegating and paying for things to get done...so be it!

I bought an impressive amount of bananas